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Life is fucking hard as balls right now...Im going through so much shit...seriously just dragging through the mudd..ugh.
Ive been in work production over load lately, Photos soon so many new prints its retarded.
I just feel like no one understands me except people who are at this school. All my friends know what its like, artschool isnt some like bullshit where you just write papers and have to read like "normal" college. I have to create concepts for paintings, execute those paintings and then write a 2 page artist statement about them, then I have to do a 6 color silk screen print, which takes about 5 hours IF you do it right. And on top of that more and more homework of the same kinda principle shit is time consuming. Im starting to realize more and more I want so badly to be in a relationship where Im happy and carefree...but you cant be carefree when you care about someone else. I cant be a student and a girlfriend at the same time it seems..or a good girlfriend at that.. Ive just lost my mind. I love Geoff so much but I cant seem to work on school and give him everything he needs at the same time...and I dont want to drag him around while Im trying to work on sculptures and prints...its not fair..I cant even go see him anymore until breaks from school and thats just so fucked up...ugh this is just so hard for me...I wish he understood. I wish someone did.
Friday were having a done with school party...Ive been working my ass off for the past 2 weeks I even missed my moms 50th birthday party bc I was doing school work til 7am..Thus intense drunkness is in order indeed..I need to loosen up. I miss my friends..
Ive been in work production over load lately, Photos soon so many new prints its retarded.
I just feel like no one understands me except people who are at this school. All my friends know what its like, artschool isnt some like bullshit where you just write papers and have to read like "normal" college. I have to create concepts for paintings, execute those paintings and then write a 2 page artist statement about them, then I have to do a 6 color silk screen print, which takes about 5 hours IF you do it right. And on top of that more and more homework of the same kinda principle shit is time consuming. Im starting to realize more and more I want so badly to be in a relationship where Im happy and carefree...but you cant be carefree when you care about someone else. I cant be a student and a girlfriend at the same time it seems..or a good girlfriend at that.. Ive just lost my mind. I love Geoff so much but I cant seem to work on school and give him everything he needs at the same time...and I dont want to drag him around while Im trying to work on sculptures and prints...its not fair..I cant even go see him anymore until breaks from school and thats just so fucked up...ugh this is just so hard for me...I wish he understood. I wish someone did.
Friday were having a done with school party...Ive been working my ass off for the past 2 weeks I even missed my moms 50th birthday party bc I was doing school work til 7am..Thus intense drunkness is in order indeed..I need to loosen up. I miss my friends..
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