Come knock on our door
Things have been amazing lately. I can honestly say that with a smile on my face.
Break started on December 19th. It was a much needed release from all the madness of the times. I got really drunk in my apartment with some close friends and a few new ones.
It wasnt till a few days later that the out come of some events really hit me. I realized me and Geoff were broken up, that I was about to have my first divorced family christmas and that I was finally doing some really selfish things, but in a good way.
I went to see the bouncing souls show with Kimmy and Danielle on Friday after christmas. It was pretty epic. I managed to get in for free and had a pass so I drank for free all night. Kate makes the best vegan cookies so I was freaking out. Later some kid came up to me and made me feel like such an old head it was retarded. Telling me that back in the day he was afraid of me and now Im a big model and everything and its sad I dont dance at shows anymore, he tried to drag me on the floor haha...Finally I caved and danced a little bit, it felt good. I miss those days, but my reasons for standing on the sides are my own.
Later we went to the lanes and met up with Jrok and Tim Churchman. We drank I got in a bit of a fight...then the lanes closed and we decided it was a good idea to go to Nick Bocks house haha. We got there and Danielle climbed on the roof to tap on his window with a stick to wake him up to let us in. He was passed out so it wasnt going to happen, then we went to TIms and watched I love Lucy all night till I passed out cuddling Danielle, because were inlove.
The next day I went to Philly with my sister and met up with Dylan. It was awesome hanging out in the city and just running around. We went to the bar that Blur works at and met up with her and Dave. Then we all headed over to El Cantina and ate vegan tacos and killed a pitcher of margaritas. Then we all went to Blurs where we met her outrageously cute puppy!!
The next day we went with MK to Honeys for food which was fucking amazing. Then we all headed back to NYC. Then me and Dylan went to the bouncing souls show again. Kate managed to give me her back stage pass so I could get in, which was so sweet of her! We also met up with Kimmy and it was fuckin awesome, I was bummed they played the same set as Friday but whatever the souls are amazing anyway.
Later that night in my drunkenness I was kid napped and woke up in PA. It was pretty insane seeing woods and snow and shit. I met Dylans parents and just hung out. Later he brought me back to NYC and I havent really left my apartment since. Ive been painting, and making some killer designs. Tomorrow my sister comes back and Im going to borrow her camera and take some photos of the stuff Ive been working on.
Ive been really bipolar lately, but more happy then anything else. I go back and forth to this dark place in my head where I wonder sometimes what Im doing. But Im just so outrageously happy at the same times I cant even think about problems I should be thinking about. I just dont care anymore. But I know right now things are perfect, and Ive never been this happy before in my life.
I started off the new year Vegan, yeah I know its crazy but Im doing it. So far so good and Im really happy that I have friends who support the change instead of give me shit for trying to "limit" myself. I just think that the raping of animals is cruel and needs to stop. After being Vegetarian for 12 years it just makes sense to go the next step.
Me Dylan and Anthony have been hanging out basically everyday all week. Its been fucking AWESOME. We had mexican night tonight and and made way to much food...thus we have decreed it will be mexican week now haha.
Break started on December 19th. It was a much needed release from all the madness of the times. I got really drunk in my apartment with some close friends and a few new ones.
It wasnt till a few days later that the out come of some events really hit me. I realized me and Geoff were broken up, that I was about to have my first divorced family christmas and that I was finally doing some really selfish things, but in a good way.
I went to see the bouncing souls show with Kimmy and Danielle on Friday after christmas. It was pretty epic. I managed to get in for free and had a pass so I drank for free all night. Kate makes the best vegan cookies so I was freaking out. Later some kid came up to me and made me feel like such an old head it was retarded. Telling me that back in the day he was afraid of me and now Im a big model and everything and its sad I dont dance at shows anymore, he tried to drag me on the floor haha...Finally I caved and danced a little bit, it felt good. I miss those days, but my reasons for standing on the sides are my own.
Later we went to the lanes and met up with Jrok and Tim Churchman. We drank I got in a bit of a fight...then the lanes closed and we decided it was a good idea to go to Nick Bocks house haha. We got there and Danielle climbed on the roof to tap on his window with a stick to wake him up to let us in. He was passed out so it wasnt going to happen, then we went to TIms and watched I love Lucy all night till I passed out cuddling Danielle, because were inlove.
The next day I went to Philly with my sister and met up with Dylan. It was awesome hanging out in the city and just running around. We went to the bar that Blur works at and met up with her and Dave. Then we all headed over to El Cantina and ate vegan tacos and killed a pitcher of margaritas. Then we all went to Blurs where we met her outrageously cute puppy!!
The next day we went with MK to Honeys for food which was fucking amazing. Then we all headed back to NYC. Then me and Dylan went to the bouncing souls show again. Kate managed to give me her back stage pass so I could get in, which was so sweet of her! We also met up with Kimmy and it was fuckin awesome, I was bummed they played the same set as Friday but whatever the souls are amazing anyway.
Later that night in my drunkenness I was kid napped and woke up in PA. It was pretty insane seeing woods and snow and shit. I met Dylans parents and just hung out. Later he brought me back to NYC and I havent really left my apartment since. Ive been painting, and making some killer designs. Tomorrow my sister comes back and Im going to borrow her camera and take some photos of the stuff Ive been working on.
Ive been really bipolar lately, but more happy then anything else. I go back and forth to this dark place in my head where I wonder sometimes what Im doing. But Im just so outrageously happy at the same times I cant even think about problems I should be thinking about. I just dont care anymore. But I know right now things are perfect, and Ive never been this happy before in my life.
I started off the new year Vegan, yeah I know its crazy but Im doing it. So far so good and Im really happy that I have friends who support the change instead of give me shit for trying to "limit" myself. I just think that the raping of animals is cruel and needs to stop. After being Vegetarian for 12 years it just makes sense to go the next step.
Me Dylan and Anthony have been hanging out basically everyday all week. Its been fucking AWESOME. We had mexican night tonight and and made way to much food...thus we have decreed it will be mexican week now haha.